Have you ever had one of those weeks where everything was off, but not in an obvious way? That is exactly how this week has been for me. Everything looks the same, but I feel like the world has gone mad and I'm the only one that has not jumped off the deep end with it. Let me break it down for you.
ClosureVille on Facebook
"you like neil gaiman!? no effin way? lol i read american gods a while back and it blew my mind. im starting anasi boys i think its called. idk. hard to start but im workin on it. huh. sorry i used to pick on you, you grew up to be pretty cool."
This is the message that I received this week from a guy that I went to junior high with. Seriously. Unprompted, unexpected, and unbelievably typical of my life. The funny thing is I barely remember junior high, and what I do remember does not include being bullied. So now I'm dying to know what this kid said and/or did to me 13 years ago, but if I ask I totally lose all cool points this guy thinks I've developed over the years. Tricky, very tricky. I try to remember the Hanson years, but there weren't a lot of high points back then. I was the new kid, and just as I was starting to solidify some good friendships we moved back to the Boro, so not much sticks out from age 12-ish to 14-ish. I know he meant well in apologizing, and it's nice to know that there are some other Neil fans out there, but seriously - what the hell?!
This same day I dropped my lunch on the ground before I could have a bite AND was tongue-tied all day. It was a really strange day.
Do You Understand The Words That Are Coming Out Of My Mouth?
I won't go into much detail on this one but I will say that it amazes me how people from the same environment can have such differing opinions on raising children. If I say apple, the other says orange. We see things very differently, and I'm sorry, but my way happens to be the right way in regards to our current disagreement. I'm glad I don't see the logic in the other side, but I really, really don't understand why they can't understand my reasoning. Yes, I realize there is some unfairness there, but we're not disagreeing on what kind of car to drive. We're disagreeing on how to raise a child. There's no half-assing that, and it seriously pisses me off that some people are okay doing that.
No New Is Good News, Right?
So, it's been almost a month since I interviewed at the well-known university. I haven't heard that I'm not hired, so that's good, but... I sent a follow up email and have not had a response. I'm not officially out of hope, but I'm getting close. Fingers crossed, but however it works out, it's woken up the desire for change in me. New clothes, new apartment, new atmosphere. Change is a-comin'.
Once the financial goal of debt reduction has been achieved, a new wardrobe is in order. I've found some really cute dresses online, and I need to figure out how to style myself beyond jeans and cute converse sneaks. There must be a way, right? I'm following lots of fashion blogs now, hoping they'll rub off on me. And if this job doesn't come through it's back to the job blogs. It's not the end of the world, but it would have been a nice change. Once a new job is in place, the apartment will soon follow. I need to have my own home. I wish I could jump right to home ownership, but until then I can live with a cozy (i.e. tiny) place of my own. I'll even go for a roommate if needed. I just need to be on my own, doing things my way and making the decisions. Change is a-comin'.
I'll keep you posted on how that goes...
